I was over thirty, had been married for over 6 years and had a healthy, beautiful son and yet felt sort of empty inside. Although, I was working hard at home - cleaning, cooking and the rest of it...being in the US, one had to do everything. Still somewhere deep down within, I was- - - not happy. One could not say I was UN-happy but wasn't ecstatic about getting up every morning. I was having more arguments with my husband than I had ever had and was shouting incessantly at my extremely active son...sometimes without reason. Something was definitely missing.Then she came...my mother. I don't know how she does it, but she always gets her finger on the problem. And always, always has a solution. What's more - it works. She said that I should go out and DO SOMETHING....something...anything. But what? Who would employ me? and where could I have my own hours? Yes, I did want to have my own hours because I was not willing to neglect my son and miss out on his progress while growing up.
Then, one day while talking to a bunch of friends, it struck....not me, it struck my mom. "Why don't you start teaching dance again?" DANCE...wow!! I hadn't danced in over four years. Even walking for more than 10 minutes made me tired. Can I actually do it? I wasn't so sure. I had learnt dance since I was four years old and had taught for several years in India. But that was a long time ago. It was before I got married, before I had a child. No, I could not do it...I was sure I couldn't.
Like a messenger of God, a nice lady, a friend of a friend, someone who hardly knew me at all told me that she wanted to learn dance from me. Without even seeing me dance she trusted that I would do a good job. And that gave me confidence. I started teaching and I haven't looked back since.
Thank you for everything God!
Thank you for everything God!
very nice !
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ReplyDeletegreat going lopa! u said it, that every person should have space of their own. isn't as easy as it sounds but an effort towards it,is worth it! seeing it work, even more worth it!
ReplyDeleteMe too wishes to dance at times. I also learnt Bharatnatyam and Kuchipudi for about 6 years, but no practice after that, its been long! intend going back one day, maybe with Aadrita!
all the best you! would love to see you dance, personally.
Like your blog Lopa, you are lucky in making your hobby your vocation, that's the best it can get :-).
ReplyDeleteChunmun, It is a mothers nature and instict to understand her own childs problem and if a mother is not able to do that she is not fit to be a mother. I did not do anything extraordinary or had not waved a magic waund to give you this solution,but merely thought how i could guide you to an easier way where you could help yourself. I had worked very hard when you were doing your training with Ananda Shankar troup, leaving you at your class and then picking up every time you finished your practice or after a show and I did that even when I was working full time only with a dream that someday this hard work of mine would give you happiness joy and lead you towards a better life.And today I am the happeist and I too thank God for what she has given me rather than what is taken away from me.
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